I apologize in advance that this entry is pretty depressing. I’ve had a lot of ridiculous ideas floating in and out of my head most of the weekend and figured I’d express them here. I’m a pessimist at heart and sometimes that will come out more than others.
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I’m a pretty simple person, in general. I know what I want, but do not desire to seek it out right now. In terms of women, it sometimes gets lonely being single. I understand that I am only a victim of my own circumstance and if I do nothing to try to change that circumstance, I only have myself to blame.
What I’m saying is, I do not desire a relationship at this time. I’m 23, I enjoy single life, I don’t go around sleeping with random women because it’s not something that I do or want to do. It is only natural though, to want the affection of a woman from time to time. To have someone near you, to have someone make you feel special the way that a woman can, to have someone you could feel an equal with and engage each other’s lifestyles. It’s tough at times to be single and okay with your lifestyle.
I went to visit my parents today. My older and always wiser married sister told me today that if I wait too long, the only woman I’ll find is one that is set in her own ways, like I am, and then compromise will be tougher to achieve. I see her point, relationships require compromise in order to keep an even keel and the longer you are set in your own lifestyle, the tougher it will be to achieve that compromise. I do have to believe, however, that there are women out there with my same mentality: “Why get married young? Why not establish a life and then incorporate your partner and their life into your successes.” I plan to get married around 30, that’s not so bad is it?
I don’t know if I’m being completely unreasonable or not. I realize that the older I get and the longer I am single (it’s been about two and a half years since my last SERIOUS relationship), I don’t exactly understand what it is women want. I hear from various women that they want someone that can treat them right, but what does that mean? My desires in a partner are pretty simple and laid out:
I want a woman who is intelligent, challenges me to be a better man, and will be loyal, trusting and honest.
Is that too difficult? It feels like society in general forces this ideal of what a woman is supposed to be. Shows like “The O.C.” or “Desperate Housewives” show these women that are completely over-dramatic and, to a great extent, shallow embodiments of an empty shell. I apologize for the pessimism today, but some stuff is just beginning to pile up in my head and bother me.
On a lighter note, “Family Guy” is on tonight and “The Winner” premiers. That should be entertaining.